Friday
George Bush
Bush in New orleans
Posted by Edd at 30.9.05
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Thursday
Kate Moss- Blows for blow
I was going to avoid being all cliched and discuss the current media circus. But Im here, and in possession of H&M's sexy new ad.
Cut,roll,snort, smile
Personally, I don't get the hype. Why would people want to spend their hard earned money on something that takes them away from reality and pollutes their mind. Come clean, you know who you are, also more people than you think are guilty.
Cut,roll,snort,smile
For those of you with that flicker of guilt, I have some advice. Stop throwing your life away, get help, see a therapist. If you only do one thing in your life you must quit. Never buy a newspaper ever again.
Cut,roll,snort,smile
I know it will be tough, quitting an addiction is never easy. You must stay positive and never again feed your addiction for gossip.
Cus,snort,roll,smile
Just think, with all the money you'll save you'll be able to join the ranks of the rich and fabulous and buy some cocaine.
Cut,roll,snort,smile
Be honest your only jealous thats shes hot, and your not. she can afford it, and you cant. End of.
Posted by Edd at 29.9.05
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Tuesday
Fuck the world, dare to stand out
Fuck me its hot in here
Posted by Edd at 27.9.05
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Monday
Posted by Edd at 26.9.05
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Personal Ad
Labels: Dark Side, Self Portrait
Posted by Edd at 26.9.05
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My favourite poem
"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learnthat love doesn`t mean leaning
and company doesn`t always mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren`t contracts, presents aren`t promises, and
you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of a man, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow`s ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure, you really are strong, you really do have worth
And you learn
And you learn with every goodbye,
You learn...."Veronica A. Shoffstall
Posted by Edd at 26.9.05
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Latter Days
Today I woke up suffering from South African Flu, courtesy of my bosses vacation. So after a couple of medicinal brandys (yes booze for breakfast) and enough hot lemons to knock out an elephant I spent the afternoon watching soppy movies. The sort which one minute your laughing with joy, the next your crying into your pillow."Latter Days" really hit the spot. I havent felt that miserable yet so happy at the same time for what seems an eternity.
It seems that even though I profess to live the perfect single existence, Ive realised that im doing nothing more than existing. It got me to thinking that maybe my over the top sharade of the joys of single life is nothing more than a defence mechanism. I believe now that pretending to my friends that single life is the way forward is just my way of accepting that no one will want me. Yet, I know thats not true. This week 2 old flames have asked to come back into my life, and although It does boost my ego a little I still have the underlying seld doubt My greatest fear is that I will let some one close to my heart, I will bear my sole and it wont be good enough then they'll cast it away like a rotten apple.
You see theres a pattern which is already emerging with the small number of brief relationships ive had.... Guy meets guy, guy falls for guy, I get scared of my emotions, I doent return calls. What im trying to work out is wheter its would be better to let go, if its even possible for me to do so. To just go with the flow, love and be loved, share my heart.
Thats why I loved "Latter Days", it gives me hope that even my self may one day find the missing piece of the jigsaw that is me.
Posted by Edd at 26.9.05
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Sunday
Inside the gate
I was struggling to think of something origional to name my blog page. Then I had a flash back to when I was working in Leeds.It was one of those beautiful days in the city when the suns shining, the streets are packed full of shoppers spending money they dont have, and workers enjoying their 60 minutes of freedom from the shackles of corporate slavery.
I was sat outside enjoying my 60 minutes, half listening to the crazy woman who always preeches on the streets of Leeds. Shes a fair distance from me but shes a big caribbean woman and her voice travels far, her words still etched deep in my mind. Then she turns to me, hand clenching a worn out bible, shouts, no rephrase, she screams, -
" Inside the gates of heaven there is no place for the gays" I almost chocked on my Dolphin friendly tuna sandwich. Ive never felt so embarresed or shocked, I didnt know how to respond or act. So being the coward I once was I stood up turned around and walked off.
So I guess this is my delayed act of defiance to that woman. If theres no place for me there I will see you in hell.
Posted by Edd at 25.9.05
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Blog virgin pops his cherry
People say you never forget your first time.
What happens if you want to forget.
Last night something happened to me. It came from nowhere, and It all happened so suddenly. Looking back, rewinding and replaying the video of my mind I can see all the signs , watch them in slowmo and freeze frame the on the exact moment it happened. At that very moment I can see and feel the passion in my eyes slowly extinguishing like a roaring fire caught in the rain.
Through thick and thin, highs and lows, rich and poor I have always had something which no one, and I mean no one could take away from me. It is what implants are to pam, velor to brintey, and JD to coke, It is what makes me ME.
Without it, I can say hand on heart I would not be here tonight writing this post (insert bitchy comment here) Without it the people who tried and failed to bring me down would have sucseeded.