Monday
CD Single and Batman in Fetish Wear
Normally being single would make me clinically depressed (CD) but not any more. Today I decided that being single was a choice, not my choice, but still a choice. I've decided to take my self out of the game. I am choosing
SINGLE. I have to conform to social preconceptions from the hours 9 until 5, why would I want to do so out of that time slot. I realized today that although I've always wanted a man, I've never actually needed one( I can change a light bulb my self). Being part of a couple is something ingrained onto out minds from an early age, from our parents, the media, images of hollywoods golden couples, cartoons. I watched many a cartoon when I was young (still a huge fan of southpark. RIP) If you think about it its no wonder I'm gay and felt I needed a man, afterall pinkie had the brain,sharky had George, Bert had Ernie, beavis had buthead, and
who could forget batman in fetish wear being unconditionally pursued by an adoring and ever eager robin, I could go on.
The fact is singles are feared, patronized and pitied. Why would someone choose to be single? I'm afraid being single for the majority of people was there second choice (of 2). I have no problem dealing with other people's misguided fears and pity, I've dealt with that all my adult life. What I do have a problem with is the law. Why should couples get tax breaks, financial backhanders from the government. The way I see it they've got two people to pay the bills, why should their tax bills be lower, if anything the single should pay the lowest rates of tax, they afterall have to pay for everything, they also consume nearly as much as a couple combined. They say its to encourage family's, but lets face it the traditional family is an endangered species. More and more couples are choosing pay over pampers. The main social group contributing to the cycle of life is the social under class, yester years working class hero's, themselves may of whom are hopeless granchildren of the late industrial age. One problem, marriage is not often top of the agenda. The single parent IS the new family. The reality is we live by outdated law which goventment lawyers and accountants cant be bothered to re write. There are more single people now than ever before, a trend which will most definitely continue. How long do you think I will take people to stand up and take action. Forget gay pride, which has in the past changed societies perceptions of gay people for the better, but now alienates gay people further- ask your self how many gay guys do you know who walk down the highstreet wearing nothing but a pair of Manolo Blanhiks, briefs, a feather headrest and a sprinkle of pink glitter? exactly- yet this is the image the most strait folks have of us- also think pricilla Queen of the desert - when is the real gay film coming out about a single gay accountant called Mr Ed the corporate slave who instead of dressing like a woman and lipsinking to I will survive spends his free time watching TV (thats television) blogging and drinking too many pints of stella on a friday. Singles pride will soon be hitting the streets. Single people standing up proud and demanding fair treatment both personally and financially, equal rights and above all equality.
Posted by Edd at 27.2.06
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Sunday
Debt free day
Today is my debt free day. My loan has finally gone and I can look forwards to the future. I have set my self a target- to be ready to leave the UK for pastures hotter in 18 months time. I have set my self a budget, which providing I follow religiously I will have £8000 saved up by then (12k euro)-making the transition far easier than it was last time.
Don't know what's changed but im feeling really restless here in Harrogate that's why I needed to work out a plan- to finally put structure there somethingng to work towards, realisticic goal which I can achieve. Hopefully now I can put the whole affair to the back of my mind and concentratere on more pressing mattersI'veve been falling beind nmassively in my studies and putting my effort into matters of less importance, and with only 3 months till exams I can't afford to. On a different note, I found a new band this weekend - "The Gossip" there a bit like the Yeah Yeah Yeahs's but with more energy and spunk my fave sone is "No No No" its racey, angry, forecefull and when I hear it I cant stop my body moving to the filthy beat.Off to the gym now, to cleanse my body and mind of the weekends excesses, tune in next week for another episode of ITGG.
Posted by Edd at 26.2.06
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Saturday
Death in an instance
I have yet another hangover, Stalls bar last night to see Si play, he was as good as always.
This morning my cat died. I was holding him, then he moved onto the next chair- the next minute he slipped, fell off the chair a minute later he died- It looke like a heart attack. Its amazing how things can happen so unexpectedly and so sudden. How life can seem so happy and certain then the next minute your facing death. Ill really miss my cat. Hes been an endless source of happyness, company and even a friend. He was as much the part of the familly as I am and he will be greatly missed. He always knew whan I was sad and tried to cheer me up and comfort me.
Good bye ozzie.
Posted by Edd at 25.2.06
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Thursday
What has become of the Brits
What a week ive had.
Ive been playing far too much poker, I won a small fortune, and lost a smaller one and difference has been wisely "invested" hand made Tshirts from Hoopers - a warning to my friends never use my accounancy or investment services.
How I mannaged it ill never know but I passed both of my winter exams. My birthday was a blinder, my friends united and got me plastered.
Yesterday was very messy, I spend half the day throwing up, and the other half tyring to sleep and failing miserably.
Today I found out that James "Nice but dim" Blunt has won 2 Brit awards. Ok, I know theyre hardly a Nobel prize, but really what had he contributed to British music. All he has done is increased record sales amongst middle aged housewives trying to fill their days with love songs beacause their husbands are out fucking their younger slimmer assistants. I have nothing against the man - believe me, he has eyes which make me melt and swoon, but listening to his music is like listening to coldplay. Its like having a glass of water over a JD and Coke. The waters bland, wont harm you & wont offend. P-lease, make mine a double and go easy on the coke, fuck bland boring music and get pissed once in a while.
Its Miss F's birthday this weekend, and I now have to find some money after my increasingly indulgent weeks clothes shopping. I would do what any respectable man would do and try and win the money on the poker table, but thanks to Party Pokers inept IT team the site has been down all day after a failed security update. Fucking loosers, with a inflated share price and over 100,000 daily customers you think they'd be able to keep a site running.
Im off now to watch the brits, boo at coldplay, swoon after James Blunt -whilst hating his music I will try to work out why he speaks like a chipmunk. And I will idolise Miss Hilton for proving that money doesnt buy class, just stupid fucking handbag dogs.
Posted by Edd at 16.2.06
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Sunday
And Im feeling good
Shock horror, Im 22 in eight days. How on earth did i mannage to live this long, believe me its through no fault of my own, ive drunk, smoked, taken yet Im still arround. Whats even stranger is that I actually feel good about it.
Firstly lets see whats happened since my last birthday. The short answer is not a great deal, compared to some years Ive had this has been relatively uneventfull. Ive spent some time with my family in gothic Barcelona. Ive become hooked on "Lost" although i feel episode 2,12 lost the plot a little. Ive payed off the majority of my debts ( a measly £350 left to go). Ive been promoted at work. I found sanctuary in craftytv.com. I passed year two of my Accountancy exams, and have sat the first 2 of this years exams (the potential downside of which is that exam results day is the same day as my birthday).
Now plans for this year. Im supposed to visit Miss C.B in Roma, although I doubt itll happen as im still waiting for her to give me definate dates. In July I planned to visit Ibiza, I was looking forward soo much to going. Ive craved a trip there for years, and I finally get someone to go with me. The only problem is im beginning to doubt my chosen travel partners sincerity. This week gone he violated my privacy, resulting in my loss of trust. Although the entrusted matter was of no great consequence, the fact that he is prepared to unessesarily gossip about me makes me question his motives. Moving on, I have set my self a Investment target. By my next birthday (when I become 22 once more) I plan to have saved £4 - 5k. It will be a strugle, cutting back on Rita Valpiani hand made shirts will be difficult, but it will be all worth it when I quit Brittain (although I have yet to set a day I would prefer to leave the UK with a minimum of £10 k in my pocket, hoppefully more if the Sky/easynet merger realises its potential). I have my final exams in June. Providing I pass I then have the task of deciding to stay in the uk for 3 more years and becoming chartered or fucking off to spain. The way i feel right now id rather be living la vida loca. Unfortunatly my grand parents arent rich, and my parents are young so I have to look towards sucureing my own future, also I dont think I can rely on finding a man to share the financial burden, but we can live in hope that Mr Right will come along, and my grand parents have severl hunhed K stashed away (yeah right on both counts). A friend of mine Miss B got dumpedrecently, (poor girl youd think) only for her every cloud has a silver lining, her gran as a gesture of sympathy released her trust fund early. She may of lost a bloke,but his replacement is £250K. Its not my usual style but I do feel a little jealous, a couple hundred K would come in handy right now.
It brings me onto why Im happy. My passion for lost had me looking on abc.com's message boards and I came a cross a lost thread about quantum physics and its basic principles. It really struck a cord.Basically, what quantum physics dictates is that things do not exist in physical form until they are actually observed by someone. Until that point, they're only a possibility. Well, actually, they're an infinite number of possibilities that sort of coalesce to become a physical manifestation once they're observed. What that means to me is that you have the power to creat any truth you want. Keep telling your self your poor, and you will be. If you know your worth it, you will be. The truth will out, and I have the power to create what ever truth I feel right.
Posted by Edd at 5.2.06
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