I was asked recently what I considered to be meaning of life.
I answered.
Now of course I'm sure we've all had that conversation after a few drinks, and in the past for me that's all its ever been. A drunken chit chat which I've only ever taken with a pinch of salt, shot of tequila and bite of lime.
This time was different, for one I was sober, and two it was my mother who so matter of factly asked me the defining question, and for once I actually answered with my heart and head with what I believe to be true, not what I feel others need to hear me say.
The problem is that my answer leaves no place for me, what I stand for or indeed who I am. I have no puropse, no life plan or greater good, there is nothing in life which I am meant to do.
Whilst for once I'm being honest Ill tell you that its a sobering feeling, unsettling and its left me engulfed by the numbness of nothingness.
You know how it is. Things to do, Stoli to drink, Marlboros to smoke, I could go on.
In my absence I thought I'd share, with a little help from my friends, the answer to one of life's great mysteries.....
One last thing, I think I may have spent just a little too much time in the sun this weekend.
What Not To Wear: Learn from my tragic mistake. Brown trousers, a bright white shirt complete with green tie and tango orange tan is by no means a good look for the office. I looked like an Umpa Lumpa's boss.
I like the honesty in this pod, and at the end she really hits the nail on the head about the communication between both gay kids and their parents.
Posted by Edd at 9.4.07
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Sunday
Domestication
Stop press,
For those of you that think I'm a drug fuelled, booze soaked wanna be socialite who floats though life from one party to the next think again. Today, despite having a terrible hangover I have cut the lawn AND washed the dishes. I deserve a fucking medal.
I thought about writing a post, but its bank holiday weekend and I have more pressing matters to attend. Lets face it those beers wont drink them selves and my tan isn't just going to happen is it.